‘In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the spirit of God was hovering over the water.’
And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God saw the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night”. And there was evening, and there was morning, the first day.
Everyday we are reminded of God, his grace, and power. Living on this earth, light signifying day, and darkness, night.
Currently I am in the midst of darkness, only heightened by the feelings of euphoria surrounding the New Year. “Happy New Year!”, a phrase that unfortunately angers me, and then leads to more anger, because I am angry at myself for feeling anger in the first place. I know it’s resentment, but I still wonder whether these people are genuinely happy. Part of me realises that it is only another day, but cannot escape the magnitude of the New Year, felt by those around me.
It’s a year of new beginnings, a chance to start afresh, but alas, we have to realise that we have the opportunity to start again at any given moment, although extremely difficult, it is not impossible.
Here in Genesis we read of God forming the heavens and the earth, and quite simply at that, showing how powerful, and able he is, but presently, it does not seem as if this God is working in my life. Truthfully, I would like the feelings of hurt, regret, sadness and anger to depart from me, so that I can serve and come to God with a joyful heart, but it seems as if I have been left. I hate to wallow in self-pity, and resentment, but here I am wallowing.
This year has not started well, and is far from happy, but I am of the belief that it won’t end here. No, I am not starting as I mean to go on, as I do not intend to go on like this, but rather make you aware that it is okay to experience the harsh realities of life on such a day as this.
But please be reminded that God’s word holds true, and we are living in the goodness of his creation, look and see the light, for it is good, take a moment to settle in the truth that God is good, we are not victims, and he has not left. Don’t base your faith solely on feelings and emotions, often turbulent and unrelenting, but rather on the truth of Gods word.
I encourage you to cast your burdens onto God in prayer, and continue to walk the long hard walk, with God. For he makes us able to go on.